By Cassandra Kaur
used to think of God as my Judge. Someone who would observe
me closely everyday and decide if I am to be rewarded or punished for my deeds
in my afterlife. He appeared to be distant. He was Someone who cared for me
but could not or would not come close. He was One whose primary responsibility
was to keep the world in order; make sure that whatever is ordained to happen
will happen as planned.
I didn't really know Him but was told that I could trust what I had heard
about Him so far and need not question what had already been tested and tried
and proven to be true for many generations before. God exists, I was told, but
who He is or what He is like, is not something I was to concern myself with.
How things changed after I met the Lord Jesus Christ! God was
no longer distant or disinterested. He was not Someone looking down at me from
a distance to judge my every deed to see if I merited heaven or hell. He came
to dwell in me; He sympathized with my weaknesses and desired to be closely
involved in my life to ensure that I would live a life of victory, a life that
would be interesting, adventurous and fruitful.
Life became something of an exciting adventure where the Lord
and I would go on interesting rides together. And for sometime, I still tended
to take charge of the destinations of these journeys. But at some point along
the way, the Lord suggested letting Him take over for a while and so I
excitedly handed over the reins to Him. I could immediately tell that He was
an Expert.
Not only did He know of exciting new destinations He knew
delightful new routes and together we cut across rivers, went up mountains and
did so at exhilarating speeds. I held on and was amazed at how patient He was
with me even though I was sometimes nervous or fell off. He would reach out
with His Hand and lift me up and tell me not to worry and led me through quiet
waters and lovely sunsets until I was once again raring to go.
Once in a while I took over the reins but it was not long
after that I grew bored and life became predictable. So I quickly asked the
Lord to take over again and He was always there, always willing, always happy
to take me to the places I wanted to go and to get me there in the most
exciting way possible.
I have learnt to trust Him and have begun to relax and enjoy
the cool breeze on my face. Life has not been the same since. Thank you, Lord
Jesus.
